• Why do movies always have a happy ending? And when it's sad, it is  tragic ending? Can that be different? Like why do writers always make endings happy. Why can't it be called a happy ending when two people did not end up being together and just moved on with their lives. I liked how Fifty Shades of Grey ended. I know there will be a sequel, but I'm fine if there's none. I liked how it was. It's very much realistic, I could say - besides the facts about the dominant and submissive, I don't know anything about those. Things in reality are likely to end up like that, and I think it's better if Anastacia just never looked back.
• That's the thing about letting your guard down. When the barrier is defeated and I'm comfortable, they just walk away.
• Reading truly eye-opening columns on couple of magazines.

I almost snapped out at work earlier today. I already announced I was taking the day off because I am completely pissed off on what was happening. Nobody knew what was going on with my head, and my heart. It sucks that the solution I came up with was so stupid. How do you move on on someone you get to see and talk to every minute of everyday? Can you really move on if you do that? And, is there such thing as silently moving on? Like when you don't tell to the other party that you're doing it. My heart is breaking, every single second of everyday. And the worst part is, he doesn't seem to care. Is he really that numb? I really want to talk to him about this again, but I'm afraid it'll just going to be like the last time. I wanna say rude things to him, but I can't. I'm completely in between of being angry at him for making me feel this way and totally not letting him know how hard it is I'm going through right now. What's the right thing to do?    

After I call off my leave, he said he was going home tonight. Seriously? Where did that come from? He hasn't mentioned that the whole week. Are we really that thing now? Seemed like the mutual connection vanished into thin air. Kind of disappointed, but that's a relief. I really don't want to go anyway, I have no place to go to. Silently, I thought about it. Was it because I announced that I won't be around that his decision to leave suddenly came up? I did not sent him a text, but I almost do. He sent me a text at around dismissal, "Ingat pag-uwi." Was that for compliance? Are you freakin' kidding me? Delete. And again, I received another, about this nonsense movie we were talking about earlier.

Know what, in the back of my mind, I still hope he's waiting for a reply and his decision to go home earlier than the usual was because he felt I am avoiding him, and he'd show something I could hold on to. But if not, unfortunately, he's a total jerk.